smitten by blogging bug!

Second post in a day! After staying away from the blogging arena for Hundreds of days I seem to appreciate the bygone me who could think, type and make sense ocassionally to a handfull of friends who'd come here on this page often!

What to blog! Scream that life is delusive and its difficult is it to keep pace with this everchanging world. Blubber after waking up mid way from a dream only to discover this is not the world you ought to be in and you were way better-off in your dreams.

And then become a part of a perpetual warfare with your own ideal self and the real you.

And guesss what helps? Knowing what you are and what you really want!

I work for a great company which voluntarily assists her employees. They'd assign you mundane tasks that transforms you to a Bot with 512K of memory and no Intelligence. Then to make yourself feel better they'd email you a Counsellor's website they had affiliated with. And when you are to messed up you'd click seemingly inhostile link in your inboX

I too went to there website and did a few Self-Assessment tests!

My decision making style Impulsive, Intuitive, Agonising, Procrastinating, Compliant and was predominantly Rational with a word of caution.

-There are many decisions which are relatively minor where it is more important (and more fun!) to decide quickly. Not all situations merit serious weighing of pros and cons.

Another test was compute my stress level . As expected I was moderately stress prone, owing to the following intrinsic qualities of mine.

· Driven by ambition

· Self-demanding

· Rushed and hurried

· Aggressive

· Competitive – even in non-competitive situations *this was kinda funny!*

· Impatient· Frequently hostile

This time the word of caution was fierce "far more likely to have a heart attack or develop heart disease "

The third test was on Self Confidence where I did reasonably well and that was not an area of concern.

Now what purpose these tests solve is still debatable. They 'd be of any help whatsoever if a cognizant attempt is made to mutate your ills which is rebelliously tough. Why ? Cause we get so Hard-Wired committing same mistakes for years and how easy is it to resist change?

Yea! And for the pic, saw this "Jeevan hi sangharsh hai " on a tempo driving in front of me. :)

predictably Ir-rational!

Well that's the title of this book I am currently reading. Some MIT professor, Economist by profession trying to mix Behavioural Psychology with economics. It started on an interesting note but half way through the author makes too many explicit observations which are based on common sense and thus it transforms to a dull reading. Any ways the title is interesting and that's why they advise us never to judge a book by its cover.

I saw this advertisement on a website offering 25% off on all books buy getting there membership for 500 bucks, and whats more you can order books worth 500 for free. It was so tempting and I ended up buying 6 books and spending around 1500.

I still believe that it was a rational decision. but isn't it that over spending gives us an absurd sense of achievement. We spend and feel happy about it.

We may buy books we'd never read, buy clothes to be worn only twice, or fell prey to lucrative SALE advertisements, where we ultimately end up spending more and buying stuff from which we don't deduce any value.

As the author says we do all this cause human beings are intrinsically afraid to loose. so very true and whats more this "irrational behaviour of ours is neither random or senseless. They are systematic and since we repeat them again and again Predictable!"

And its Unbelievable the amount of rationalization I have put behind buying my camera. S0 much that I don't have a camera yet, for almost 8 months since I thought of buying it in the first place.

I have pondered about it all from falling Rupee with respect to USD, buying it from grey or with warranty, from Delhi, Bangalore Singapore or US.

Its like more options you have and then you tend to decompose there respective benefits and drawbacks. You are ultimately left with huge number of IFF's and BUTT's to be mapped that grow exponentially beyond your cognitive ability to comprehend.

Only rational that seems to be plausible enough is the answer to this simple question

DO I REALLY NEED IT OR NOT? y\n